Nightmares

Last night was a long sleep but nothing but Nightmares

Guess I am still not adjusting well to my brother's passing. Some of them of things happened when I was 9. 57 year old events coming back as nightmares. Don't know how many times I woke each time from a nightmare. None recent events most around twenty to thirty years ago but some like a few from childhood even older. Makes me wonder if we ever forget the things that bother us. They seem so much easier to remember than the good things.

Resolutions Sid Style

Resolutions & Things to Do 2011

1. Do 1 hour minimum cardio per day ( treadmill)

2. Do ½ hour minimum a day of resistance (gym)

3. Stock freezer, fridge, pantry

4. Eat better and track meals

5. Monitor Heart Rate, Blood Pressure, Pulse, Sugar, Weight also exercise level & amount.

6.Walk Rocky more

7. Study a minimum of 2 hours a day can be concurrent with another activity such as listening to tapes or watching Video.

8. Clean up organize & keep it that way.

9.Get Ethernet cable

10. Do anxiety & depression workbook

11. Dress better

12. Contact Family more

13. Sort, box, label and store stuff

14. Set Clocks start wearing a watch again

15. Mail Lily’s gift

16. Get TJ’s address and mail chess set

17. Visit Dad

18. Make flash cards for Japanese

19. Go through drawers organizing packing & labelling or discarding Donate discards Sally Anne or mental health

20. Use bike more weather permitting

21. Do will or make arrangements

22. Visit Jess & kids in summer if possible.

23. Look into getting license back

24. Start processes

25. Passport

26. Write a level of the Japanese Test

27. Do 1/3 hour non Japanese language work twice per week.

28. Improve credit rating.

29. Increase savings

30. Learn to sign

31. Do some small electronics projects

32. Read at least 1 book a week, keep a record of books read\

33. Work on a personal rule book

34. Loose at least 1 pound a week


The way I handle New Years Resolutions is this. I think about and write them down starting New Years Day. I have some rules the most important is they must be possible. I commence them the day AFTER my birthday. Being mid January that is not much of a problem. Reason for day after is it allows some form of celebration or surprise.

They are subject to modification, they are reviewed once a month and at that time new ones can be added completed ones removed from the list, ones that are partly on course or going faster than expected will be adjusted to reflect that.

Subsets can be added. For example #33 Write a personal rule book. Will once done have an a) which will be read the rules each day till memorized once memorized recite them aloud at least once each day. This is not talking to myself but developing a personal Mantra. Beats Ohm.

As people who read this generally know me. Perhaps not in person but in essence suggestions are welcome for the next update which will likely be the day before Groundhog day Feb 1st.

So far so good. My 1st day on the treadmill forced me to lay off it for a day. I had brand new sneakers so they were not broke in. Blisters resulted on the bottom of my feet and my heel. I lanced the ones on the bottom of my feet but had to give the heel a day to heal a bit. I am now going to be using a bandaid ( fabric ones ) to protect that spot even after the shoes are broken in. I know that spot gets rubbed the wrong way if anything does. Band-aid as it is cheaper then moleskin and equally effective. Perhaps more.

Also thank you for all the condolences on my Brother passing. I am finally adjusting to the fact.

George Arthur Brechin 18 Oct 1956 - 14 Dec 2010

It's almost impossible to write what is basically an obit for a younger brother you looked up to.

As some of you know while I try not to look down on anyone, I make a real effort to look at everyone as my equal. However there are some people I always looked up to. George was one of those people. Call them my personal heroes. Different people for different things. My Grandfather was my overall hero. My Dad for his ability to treat everyone fairly and never loose his self control. With George though he had terrific Academic skills it was his sense of Justice I always looked up to. One thing he would not tolerate was a bully. Mind you his method of dealing with a bully was normally to bully the bully so badly the bully would never dare bully again. If it was a physical bully though George was usually smaller he would use that to embarass the bully because though George never swung first ( and George would always make sure there were witness to that ) when the swinging stopped the bully would be unable to stand. For mental bullies George would trade insults till the other was in tears. I saw him do that with Grown men.

There were lots of things I admired about George but as I first said most was his sense of Justice.

His academics and problem solving abilities were great. If you have something electronic in your body controling something you probably owe what the device does to George as he was the one solved the problem of Electronic devices interfacing with human nerves. That was around 1981. He was the first Technologist to be published in a Medical Journal. He was published a few more times before he became effectively disabled. For the past 20 years or so he lived in near constant pain.

I truly miss him and the only consolation I have is that he no longer has to deal with the pain.

I have lost not only a brother but one my heroes.

The following will show a bit more about the type of man he was. I suggest you double click on the pictures so you can read the whole articles they are too small in the Blog photos.